- Posted
- Apr 3rd 2005
- Mood
- Disappointed
I remember when I first got into drawing cartoons. I was in the Harry potter fandom at the time... and I saw all of the awesome pictures that the artists were drawing. I wanted to draw like that so badly... so I tried... and I sucked.. but i just kept trying... and yeah, maybe I've come a long way... but I feel like i've only traveled 1/100th of the journey... and I'm not sure I can take the other 99 parts. Especially when other people seem to make the WHOLE journey in 1/100th of the time it took me to get through the first 100th.
I feel... dense. I've always thought that I had some artistic ability, but as the years go on, I'm starting to realize that it's just not enough. Maybe I should give up.
This makes me cry because I love to draw... but when you feel like you're doing something for nothing... it's hard to keep going.
And I feel really bad, because I've bothered Dianna so much with my damn insecurites. I want them GONE!!!! but i don't know how to get rid of them. I can't believe any of my art is truely worth it. for every single picture i draw... the image in my head is WAY better.
Is there anyone out there... who can draw the exact image in their head? or am i chasing an impossible goal?
Why do i even care so much? who cares if i can't draw? most people can't anyway.
Maybe because this is all i have other than writing. for my entire life... there are the only two things i've ever been good at. So it just breaks my heart to think that i've been misled.
What if i'm not good at anything? Then what's left to live for?
gah... writing this was supposed to make me feel better... but it only made me feel worse.
I need to step out of my mind.
I need to be cheered up... *sigh*
TK Says:
One thing you should know is that....you CAN draw. Very good ;3 They're 100x better than my crap, and I feel like I'm the one in your position T-T;
I always have a great image in my head that I just can't get onto paper. So many ideas...I can never make them reality. I think I am actually at my peak. I can progress no further.
You however have potential
I do know people that can get the image in their heads onto paper. Don't give up! Just because my art is worthless doesn't mean I give up, draw because you want to!
pazazz Says:
I'm not as talented as you are, but I have never been able to simply draw from my head very well. I use alot of references, which is why I finally broke down and bought a digital camera for quick visual refs. I don't think it's a matter of how you get your creative juices flowing, as long as you continue to learn and grow as an artist.
Anmras Says:
When I first came to sheezyart, your talent blew me away, and I'm chasing after you like a moth to the sun! You're a great role model for me because you have such consistent and remarkable talent!
I know I'm going into drawing anime as a career, and I'm scared shitless about it! Every person who draws feels like you do right now at some point and out of those 100 steps of the way, I'll bet people like Dali or Picasso didn't even make it to the fifth. If someone made it the whole 100 steps, then it just wouldn't be beautiful art anymore.
Insecurites are normal, expecially if this is a lifestyle for you. If you think about it, has a lawyer ever had doubts about a new court case? Of course he has! The only thing to do is forget about the future and the past, think about the now and go draw!
hoshi Says:
Mao~ You CAN draw good! MUCH better than I can, in any case. :3
Everyone said what I was gonna say, too. *agrees with them* And I know how hard it is to just the image just how it is in your hrad. Very hard and almost impossible. >.>; *has like a million things in her head but can't draw any of it x_X*
*pats* Just try to cheer up, Lori~ If you're drawing for yourself, who cares what other people think, anyways?
calymne Says:
You draw SO WELL, it's crazy. No one loves their work all the time: especially because any work that you do yourself, you will look at longer than anyone else will and it gives you time to say 'Oh shit... why the hell did I draw that? What was WRONG with me?' Everyone else just sees it as beautiful.
I'm willing to bet that at least 50/100ths of that journey is just becoming confident in your work: once you do, NOBODY will be able to tell you anything bad about it.
I hope you feel better.
rasilverstorm Says:
Don't worry to much that you can't draw what's in your head... I can't either yet! one day we'll be both able to do so... but before that, let's go back to practise some more
Pam Says:
This is easy for me to sympathize with. Sure the angst is there. Just remember, almost all artists are insecure about what they do in one way or another, regardless of skill level. It is difficult to recreate exactly what is in one's mind. I've been trying since the age of nine and still am unable to get it.
Yes, you will always compare yourself to those better than you. All of us do. And you shall improve as all of us do. Again, I can offer myself as an example. I often wrinkle my nose when reviewing artwork from as recent as three months ago. Heh, you should (not) see my work from my senior year in high school. The sketchbook is always slammed as I can only look at so much of it.
You are going to work at your own pace. I have seen your gallery. You are infected with talent, and I do mean that in the best way possible. Also, believe it or not, the angst is a blessing. To know your insecurities is to know you will improve. That alone truly does make you capable.
So don't give it up! ***e-hugs
d c bounce Says:
Don't give up. Just don't. Your art has a hell of a lot to offer, it shows mood and emotions in an economical style. Maybe try drawing something else in another medium or style to give yourself a challenge or a break?
Whenever I come up against it, I look at a topic on the daily sketch group on cgtalk.com and have a go: I've never made anything good enough to post, but it's fun to try something different for a change.
Never despair: you have talent, let it out!
d.c.b