- Posted
- Mar 22nd 2005
- Mood
- Frustrated
*EDIT*
I hate being ignored... yet that's usually all I ever get from people. Maybe it's because they seem to know that that's the last thing I want, so it's an easy way to upset me. Maybe it's all in my head, but no matter what i do, where I go, everyone just... ignores me. Like I don't matter... like I don't exist.
And maybe I don't matter. Who knows. I'm just sick of feeling like nothing. I always try my best to be there for all of my friends and my family... but they don't seem to want to do the same for me. I'm always being taken advantage of.
"Oh, Lori's nice... she won't mind if we forget about her."
I'm really sorry... but this is how I feel almost constantly. No matter what I do, I can't get people to care about me.
Maybe I'm not worth it. That would make sense.
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I'm just really frustrated with everything. I didn't want to post this on DA because I didn't want to draw a ton of attention to myself... but i need to write it somewhere.
Nothing seems to fit together, and I'm sick of it. I shouldn't be complaining. I'm on "spring" break (i put that in quotes because there's still snow on the ground T_T) but..... it just doesn't feel right. No one understands me... I feel alone.
It doesn't help that everything I draw completely sucks. I'm so frustrated with my lack of ability.
I'm staying at a friend's place right now... she went with her boyfriend for some sort of test.... and it was supposed to take 45 minutes... but it's been like 3 hours and she's still not back. I have to leave in 45 minutes or i'll be late for work back in the cities. *feels forgotten*
Oh well. Bye.
hoshi Says:
x_x Your drawings don't suck at all~ *pats* Wish there was something more that I could do to help cheer you up a bit. :3
calymne Says:
The drawings you post look GREAT. The ones you don't post can't be too bad. And if they are, maybe you should just take a break? A few days, a week, whatever, just clear your mind and don't worry about if it looks good or not if you do draw, just relax and live with whatever you make. I think everyone hates their own art, mostly just because we have so much time to analyze stuff that we make as opposed to other people's work.
Anyway, I hope you feel better, 'cause your work really is good!! Taking some 'you' time always works for me (does that make sense? >.>).
rasilverstorm Says:
Awwww, Lori... Like I said before your really gifted and if it doesn't work, that's okee you'll get to what you want one day (just like me
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I hope I can help you out somehow, and next to that there are many peeps that love you, like me *hugs*
Hakumei Says:
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*cries*
pazazz Says:
Hug for you. I heard you got alot of snow in your state. I hate when you get snow this time of year. You look foward to spring and it starts to warm up, and .....Bam more damn snow! Warmer weather is just around the corner, and as far as feeling neglected, you always have us.