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Wolfshadow: How long will it be till all of you hate me?

  Wolfshadow: How long will it be till all of you hate me?
Posted
Mar 22nd 2005
Mood
Ashamed
Music
Green Day - Blvd of Broken Dreams
Feeling like shit lately.. I have problems at work (constantly, actually) and I'm getting sick of that.. But that's not even part of it. I think I'm coming to the slow conclusion that everybody out there hates me, for some reason.

I've been trying to find people I can share a room with @ Otakon on LJ, but so far no such luck. I asked some friends, one, long-time friend of mine, he didn't even ANSWER.. Just.. Silence..

I asked on my own.. I got Tabby informing me of OtaRockman, but I knew about it already. Still no leads on rooms.. and who to hang out with.. I wanna spend time with the MM people this year.. I've been held back from that for the past 2 Otakons... *sighs* I guess it doesn't matter. The overwhelming silence is astounding. I dunno.

I guess I don't talk enough to them. But.. I have a full time job and I'm the soul person to depend on. I.. wish I could be here, and catch up and talk, even roleplay a little, (god knows I miss roleplaying!) ... but, well.... hah.

It doesn't matter, does it? In the end, I know my fate. I had a boyfriend, we split. I know I'll never get another guy. I know that. I guess it's the same here. Somehow, I managed to annoy everyone. The MM fans my age hate me, for reasons I don't understand. The younger ones.. .. They don't hate me yet.. .. but I'm sure they will.. .. for reasons I probably will ever know.

I just wish I knew. I know I'm crazy and annoying.... That has to be it.. right?

Oh well.....
 

Comments

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ratbat Says:

i can probibly pay my freind to let you stay in our room on my behalf .. i have to talk to him so far... everything is up in the air.

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Flowery Says:

Let me put in my two cents of encouragement... it may sound not-so-comforting, but once you take a look at the Many times when we think someone dislikes us, especially through the net, it's usually conclusions that we come to on our own terms. We don't honestly know how they feel behind the screen -- it's just that when we don't get the kind of feedback that we'd expect or like, we may feel a little underapprechiated. If you really did take a survey face-to-face of all these people, though, I'm sure you'd find it quite to the contrary of what you feel are their true opinions of you. After all, you're nothing but sweet to everyone and that's certainly no reason for hard feelings from anyone! (and if they do anyways, *THEY* are the ones with the problem. ^_~)

Anyways, I hope this could cheer you up... and just know that I think you're an awesome, kind, and generous artist. Don't let others get you down, and keep being who you are -- everyone will love you for it!

Flowery Says:

LOL, oh dude, I left out a whoooole chunk of writing in the first paragraph. But I accidentlly copied/pasted over it. Just start with the "Many..." and everything will be tight.

(oh boy, me and my commenting Engrish streak...)

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Rodrigo Shin Says:

Hey, don't be so pessimistic there... trust me, I've been there lord knows how many times, back and beyond. If I could lend a hand (and hoping I'm not being intrusive or anything- I hate seeing people go through this...), I'm always up for it.

Crazy? You are, thankfully. A few of us are this talented . Annoying? Nah. ;)

So, in the end, it IS very tough to go through this all... but life's all about keeping on trying. That's just the way we live.

Hope I can get in touch tonight, and also hope you cheer up.

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