Posted

Mar 20th 2005

Mood

Frustrated

I am feeling really sad right now. It seems that people are always getting angry with me. When they get like that they say things that really hurt me. They say things that they normally wouldn't say but it shows me what they really think of me. I learned that most people think that I don't help out with anything and that I am basically a loser who will never amount to anything. I am tired of it.
I still can't draw cause I have to have this cast thing on for another week. My ear infection is still bad. To top it all off I went to one of my friend from schools pages and she had taken me off her friends list when I thought we were good friends. I didn't know what to do so I just asked her what was wrong and took her off my friends list also.
I am also upset because people are still bothering me about my weight. My dad never shuts up about it and mean people are still making fun of me. I just want all of this pain to end.
The last thing is that I hate it when I watch people and they don't watch me back cause it makes me feel like my art is not good enough. Art is the only thing I have right now so I want to be really good at it. I can't wait until I can draw again.
Sorry for being so negative and down in the dumps. Things just arn't going my way right now.