Posted

Feb 27th 2012

Mood

I have done some serious thinking about the events of yesterday.

Now I spent the evening talking to Mixy and our friend Absolut about everything that went down.

Abso presented some very good points:
Forrest is nothing but a sorry excuse for a fur who doesn't want anyone to be happy, since he'e never happy.
Forrest is always starting shit and causing drama.
Mixy and myself tend to get jealous over each other, and make up for it that evening.
Mixy wants the pet to spice things up, not as an excuse to get away from me.

Mixy made it very clear, through his refusal to let me out of his arms during and after our talk last night, that he doesn't want to lose me over anyone.

Now I worry our pet is ignoring me because of all that happened.
I am sorry I had to lash out in that fashion, I was extremely upset by Forrest's and Audrey's FALSE accusations about me.
I am also sure that they both set it up since Forrest REFUSED to talk to Mixy about his insults at me, and instead told him that Audrey will talk to him.
Audrey is also nothing but a bitch who wants to rip apart happy relationships simply because one (or both) person (people) refused to have sex with her.

I want to make one thing very clear.

I have been thinking and meditating about all that happened. Here is what I have from that:
Audrey and Forrest deserve all due judgement from the Guardians, of which I am a part of.
They both need to be made ashamed of their selfish actions and words.
I now have 2 very cute furs to take care of.
Mixy has grown up his pack, which now includes a single pet we both share.

I am willing to give this a shot.
I am willing to allow Mixy what he wants.
I am willing to fight my emotions with all logical reasoning.
I am willing to keep our pet.

I love my Mixy, and I love our Aryx.

I also want to make one thing very, very clear:
Nothing will break up me and Mixy. We both DO NOT want to lose each other.
There is NO SENSE STARTING FIRES with me. I am a Guardian and WILL burn you with your OWN fire.

Another thing I will make clear:
Mixy is completely in charge of this relationship. I am a sub. Therefore him having Aryx as our pet is completely his decision.
As far as I can tell, that decision is from how much fun we both had with Aryx, and how much we enjoy his company.
Therefore, shooting fireballs at me and accusing me of ruining him will do nothing more than piss me off. This is especially when you have nothing to back your claims, and it turns out it was YOU WHO LIED TO ME!!!

My Guardians have told me that I should not worry, I am keeping my wolf.
I just now have 2 to take care of now, and that I must take good care of them both.

I intend to do just that.

On another note:
These issues had me debating closing DWS and TNSC and simply throwing my computer out. I honestly do not need any of you causing me drama, and therefore will not put up with it. I have my Mixy and am very happy with that.
While I may still be adapting to this change and our new pet, I am trying my best to adapt postively.

I will not shutter TNSC or DWS, and I will remain online. All I ask is to stop accusing me of shit that isn't true and stop all this drama.
Things are hard enough on me now as it stands, please don't make it any harder.

For our pet, Aryx.
We love you and I am trying very hard to not have bad feelings.
We both enjoy your company and want to keep you.

I am very sorry all this had to happen.