Posted

Nov 23rd 2009

Mood

Sorry

I left this place for so long after being a little emo boy for the fact no one gave little to no care for me nore my artwork (if you can even call it that I’m ashamed of it now) In fact I remember in my first ever days here wondering why anyone would ever leave and swearing I would never leave even if I became old and grey.

I miss this place and I remember how I first posted on a deviant art chat room which hosted Xenon, Liam, Insane Kenny, Shida, Wonchop and of course my best buddy Zero. I wanted to be an animator and yet I couldn’t be bothered to make any effort because of how lazy I was.

I moved along with Zero to here on Sheezyart where we spent ages Band waggoning, MMOing and having fun with people who I wouldn’t have meet without this great site and let me tell you these are some of the BEST PEOPLE I could ever have ever met on or offline. That aside there were down moments the e-drama mainly, OH THE E-DRAMA it was worse than an episode of Eastenders going at 1000 times the speed. This was either cause by me or other people but hey it made life interesting.

I was never a good artist, funny or THAT GUY (you know what I’m talking about) and as time went on this showed as people slowly left me and my group of friends alone as we weren’t cool or new enough or just not online at the right time but it was ok cause I had my best friends Zero and Blue at my side. (On a side note Zero was cool enough as he was funny and actually good at art so people didn’t leave him)

Then as I grew up and went into college I found I was failing hard and nothing was very fun anymore as my life took a down turn since I couldn’t take the strain of college work leading me into the gutters, this took effect on my Sheezy life too as I had less time online leading me away from online friends.

But then the fire happened, as a power surge started in my TV and started to burn (which wasn’t very fun to wake up too) and destroyed everything that ever meant anything to me leaving me out side of my house in my boxers and a t-shirt without my glasses staring into my room from across the street as there was nothing I could do but watch it burn. (It’s not a great feeling trust me)

After sorting out a rented area and doing insurance I got a laptop and talked to my friends here on sheezy again however turned out after leaving for a month no one gave a rats arse about me even slightly so I decided to leave.

After thinking myself out I had to restart my college work as my work burned in the fire and this time I wanted to do it right and so I did and now I have triple A grades in Moving image, Art and Graphics a complete turn around from my first year. The down side to getting these grades was that I couldn’t talk to my friends online much and so they drifted away from both me and each other.

Right now I’m working on and completing animations finally, looking towards going to university with A* grades to do a BA hons in animation and I have a girlfriend that I couldn’t love more and I’m finally happy!!

However I still feel rather empty as I miss my friends, the fun, the enjoyment and the great community this site gave me. I can’t have that anymore as I know no one cares about this avatar and name because its too old and I know I cant go back in time.

I know more than likely no one will read this far or even care because hey it’s just me and I shouldn’t expect you to care. But if you do read this far I will leave you with this enjoy your time here and have fun while you can ignore the e-drama.

To my best friends zero and blue remember although I’m not there much anymore and you’re both not working together on the site anymore you two are still my best friends and nothing said will ever change that.

K thanks bye.