Posted

Nov 5th 2009

Mood

Confused

Music

Ao no Sokutsu - Lareine

Today, I met a lady waiting at the bus stop and I asked her for advice on dealing with hormonally dysfunctional, hard headed, shy, confusing and absolutely difficult menz. I think she gave me the best advice out of all the people I've asked. "Don't make yourself too available. You're 'busy right now'" Lol

Yup. I told him I liked him, and he seemed to like that thought until lately. Sort of ignoring me, acting too cool, flirting with other girls, not really talking to me.... but then again, I'M always flirting with other guys and he never really talked to me before. He's just too shy... always smiling at me though. Huh.

It's like he's pushing me away but at the same time trying to get close.

1.) He's come to school about 20 minutes earlier than he usually does and we sit together near his locker. Usually, we're not saying anything though I'll be asking the occasional random question. We just sit together. Not really talking to each other or anyone else... except me when I'm saying "morning" to random people I know.

2.) I walk him to class and he walks a few steps ahead of me with a brisk paste (sp?). So I'm usually left to try and catch up or talk with his friend that is also walking with him but is being left behind also...

3.) When I occasionally come to sit with him and his friends at lunch, he never really sits with me or like... anything. Acting like I'm not there unless I say something to him. He's always off in his own world when I'm there.

4.) He wants my attention. I swear. I was getting my obligational grade 9 vaccines and his PE class was walking by. I had this really dumb, worried looking face and I was staring off into the distance and then *snap* his hand is in front of my face and he says "good luck!! " and rushes back to return to his class. AND ALL THAT FLIRTING. AHHH

CHILD. STOP PUSHING ME AWAY AND THEN PULLING ME CLOSER!!

But then again... I do the same... STILL! >.> Even though I'm always touching and flirting with other guys and girls... and I'm not as obnoxious when I'm with him because I'm actually quite nervous... and I sometimes ignore him because I don't want to be clingy...

AHHH!! I hate that awkward I-Told-You-I-Like-You-And-You-Seem-Keen-On-It-But-Hasn't-Said-Anything-Back stage. NURRRRR....

I'm going to sort of maybe kind of bring this up.

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Angel: *stares at his face intently*

Tomo: What?

Angel: Tomo... are you okay? *puts hand on him*

Tomo: Um...yes...

Angel: Well, it's just that you seem different lately.

Tomo: Really? How?

Angel: I don't know but you seem different to me. Your confusing me.

Tomo: oh...

Angel: *smiles* If something's wrong you can tell me.

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Something like that... try to get it out of him. Damn ESL kids with their bad English. EVEN SHO TALKS TO ME MORE THAN YOU TOMO! AND SHO'S ENGLISH IS WAYYY WORSE THAN YOURSS!! AHFNLGNDLKHN
anyway...

I got sick. I dont think it's swine flu. Just a regular cold. =.=;; I should be at home but I refuse to miss a day, keeping this bitch whore slut monkey balls sucker hobo away and trying to get that damn boy to stop being such a pussy. MAN UP. AHHHHH

well then. I should also do some drawing soon... Um... I have a couple things I did in Graphics class but it's not on this computer. I'll get it to sheezy soon!