- Posted
- Oct 20th 2009
- Mood
I don't know, I come back to Sheezy every few months and I've been going back and looking at old stuff everybody used to make. Noticed Bogs featured
this old thing and it just kind of gave me a nostalgia rush. I miss those times. Can't believe it's almost been five years since I joined Sheezyart. I'm 20 years old now...still haven't accomplished anything I wanted to accomplish in 2004. God, where did it all go? It depresses me sometimes. I see a lot of things people I've watched for years being submitted now and it's all great. Everybody's improving; getting better and making more good stuff. But, me, I don't really do anything anymore aside from garbage on Youtube.I've become a cynical shadow of my former self. As embarassing as it is, I miss the naive sprite animator who strived to make things people enjoyed and while they were never that good, I enjoyed doing it.
In 2006 things slowed down and I quit doing a lot of things. I got into this slump and haven't been able to do anything in terms of drawing or animation. The ideas never stopped, though. Tons of funny and serious ideas for animations are always being thought up that I never really put down on paper. I wish I never stopped. I wish I could have made something of myself on the internet except for being known as "That guy who made Youtube Poop". Even worse than being recognized as a sprite animator if you ask me. I wish I hadn't stopped talking to the friends I made here. They're a lot of the reason I decided on making stuff in the first place. Maybe it's because I was just young but I really want that time back. I don't know what the hell came over me those few years ago but I STILL find it hard to pick up the tablet pen and, you know, DO something with it. I was never really that good at drawing, and now that I'm past my teens I kind of think it's too late to even try again. I hope not, though.
Anyway, this sudden rush in Sheezyart nostalgia-ness kind of brings back a little inspiration...not much, but a little nevertheless. Perhaps in a while I'll make something. I'd like that, and I hope you do to.
If you're still watching me and have read this journal, please say so in a comment. Even "Hey, I read this". It'll make me feel a lot better about everything if you do. I really want to become active here again, but god, it's been a long time since I have been.
Velvellatio Says:
Yeah...I've been becoming more of lazy ass these past few years, too. I've actually been lurking DeviantArt more a little here and there leaving some comments and stuff. For a while now, I've been meaning to scan some of my old drawings to DeviantArt and maybe SheezyArt (some dating back to 2005 and even some from middle school) just to show everybody what I've been doing with myself this whole time. I figure maybe I'd get some comments here and there and start making some more friends. I've already sort of accepted that there's some people I'll probably never talk to again, but I'd like to at least make some new great friends on Sheezy. It doesn't really help that this has been happening IRL, too. Graduating high school earlier this year when I was really starting to make a lot of friends during my senior year. It's all too depressing. Even more depressing is that I'm the first person to comment on this journal when you submitted it five days ago...heh. But, damn. ):
Bioship Says:
Son, I've been busy as shit.
I've been working alongside with college so I don't have time for much of anything.
I guarantee that I lurk at least 4000000 times more than you do, though.
Yaminomalex Says:
I come here every now and then.
DarKsidE Says:
Beatin a dead horse you want? For me, this site is as good as dead. I only come here because of some people but I won't post stuff active around here anymore. Just to many bugs etc.