Posted

Aug 25th 2009

Mood

Carefree

FUCK... Last night I had a goddamn EPIPHANY..

Since leaving my previous job like... Nearly a fucking year ago, I've been feeling generally unmotivated, and lets be honest... LAZY.. Not to mention a little terrified of "work"... Or really doing anything constructive that involves significant effort.

I'M NOT GETTING ANY GODDAMN YOUNGER... So NO MORE of that bullshit.. Seriously. Screw it..
No more being afraid of doing things, no more being lazy, no more holding back from things that I either want to or NEED to do...

What does this mean?... Probably being a lot more rash and abrupt with decisions, shoving people and things aside that are proving to be obstacles (family...), artisticly probably much stranger shit than I've posted in the past, we'll see what happens in that regard..

BEFORE this time next year I intend to get AWAY from this stupid city for a while and go do some traveling.. WITHOUT my family or friends in tow.. I don't have much youth left, I have people to see, things to do, places to go, AND NO REASON NOT TO...

FUCK aprehension and inhibitions.. It's time to enter a new phase in my life after years of being a goddamn fearful RETARD..