Posted

Jul 8th 2009

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Britt Nicole | Set the World on Fire

Alright, I want only your ideas an opinions.. Please and Thank you!

Alright last Friday night I had "dinner" with my father, but there were added people. He woman, her mother, her niece and one of her daughters.
Alright before I went to dinner with them, I had called daddy, and said "Daddy can you and I possibly go out for dinner? But there is one thing, your paying!"

So he said yes, but also Ms. Beverly will be there and others. I said ok (Becuase I don't hold judgment on people, even though they have wronged me.) So we went out an ate, yada yada, I didn't spend one ounce of time with him, other than in the truck when we were going, and him taking me back home.

The next day I told mom, she was upset and went into a rage almost, saying "You will never learn huh? Your Father always leaves you for last! Your always begging him to take you here an there!"... I was a bit overwhelmed as usual becuase I never really listen to my mother, but she is right~ My father always leaves me for last. My mom said I should have gotten my food and told him to take me back home.. I feel as I should have done so! But then my heart clashes with my brain. I love dad, and I am willing to do anything an everything just to spend sometime with him...

Anyhow, about 2 days ago, I saw on Myspace, one of the ladies daughters saying, "Little cayman 2mrrw" I already knew just by reading it, that my father would be, the one taking the woman an her daughters and possibly her mother to little cayman.. I was totally hurt and upset.. But I ignored it a bit.
So anyhow, I called the next day just to see if he was really in Little Cayman with her an her family, well damn it, I had it right. He said they were in little cayman >____>;
So I said "Yeh ok, that's ok, I only wanted to know if you could take me to see my friends."
He said, "Daddy, didn't ask you to come becuase you had that nasty flu." I said (being the totally passive and dismissive daughter I am) "It's ok." He replies with, "One day, daddy will take you out, you hear." I said "mhmm ok."

Today, 2 days later he calls me and says again "Daddy didn't want to take you out, becuase you were sick, but we will go ok." I say, "Alright. Not a problem Daddy."


Tell me something you guys, what the heck is wrong with me, do you think I am too understand, too loving, or just plain stupid...
Why am I last to my father, why do I always get the bad end of the stick? -ponders- please give me your feedback, you all always make me feel better in the most part.



Thank you,

Vi signing out~