- Posted
- Jan 24th 2005
- Mood
- Depressed
- Music
- Keane - On a Day Like Today
I wonder, is love really worth all the pain that it causes?
I know it is, but sometimes I really wonder, the pain that you feel deep down in your heart from something emotional in love is the worst pain one can suffer. It's worse then anything else emotional or psysical, and it's really hard to live through. I've gone through it many times in the past, but I don't want to live through it anymore. It's just horrible. It really makes me want to just stop living, and feeling anything, good or bad.
I wish I could be one of those people that loves sex and no strings attached. I wish that I wouldn't fall in love, just have casual sex with someone, and never fucking fall in love with them.
I really wish I could live a normal human life and never have felt love, and never feel it again.
Unfortunatly that is impossible.
Note: This journal is not suicidal in anyway, I've been through that shit and not doing it again. It's just a depressing reflection of what I'm feeling now.
vivian Says:
well honey i just had the shittiest brick thrown on my ass today....i just got all my shit that was at ex's and it just hit me so fucking hard that it is finally over..ah fuck it right!!
's on you =3
diablos666 Says:
Yep. Know that feeling!
Outlaw Ink Says:
It's never a good feeling, but it gets better with time. Hope you feel better soon.
AzHeavenblade Says:
Well, I'd gauge you lucky that you've had some deep relationships...That's the good part of love. The unfortunate part for me is the parting, which happens far too often. I'm on the other side of the Atlantic from the girl I've grown to love, and that's almost as hard as leaving her altogether, as I won't see her for a year.
It would be far more worse if we were deeper involved then I left, so I can sympathize as I can imagine that kind of pain, judging from what I'm feeling right now.
HitmanN Says:
Arkant Says:
I sorta know what you mean... only, I've only ever had one girlfriend, and lots of times where I tried, got my hopes up, and was crushed. Heh... when they say you have a "crush" on someone, it must mean you're going to be crushed by unreciprocated emotions. Yeah... I've all but given up hope... but... just maybe, there's one person I can still have hope for, even if she is on the other side of this continent...
Hang in there, you'll find someone... I hope.
Starpac Says:
I hope you feel better;I'm "emotionally Undead" myself...I mean I've had my heart stomped on so many times I've pretty much given up on this "Love" thing humans speak so much about...If it finds me Cool,but I'm not looking for it any more....
jae Says:
I hate to be a Hallmark cliche, but it's kinda true... you can't really appreciate the dizzying heights without knowing the crushing pain of the broken heart. I have to remind myself of that. It's easier, as time goes on, to get over people. It took me six months to get over a girl I've had it bad for for three years, but I did. I'm sure this will pass, and you'll feel good again. Give it time.
I'm male. I'm supposed to be awesome at no-strings sex. But I can't even maintain a stiffy for the girl that's grinding my crotch if I feel nothing for her in an emotional way. I just... I have to have love or the sex is just mutual masturbation. And I don't worry if my hand thinks I performed up to par.
John Tannius Says:
Well, if it's any consolation (which it's probably not
) I would most likely be a mountain hermit after my last realationship if it wasn't for my daughter. She makes it all worth while.