Posted

May 18th 2009

Mood

Carefree

Hey everybody!
It's good to be back!

But for the longest time, I wasn't entirely sure I would ever be back. I mean, I'd been gone for so long I suppose I just didn't know if I would be able to fill my own shoes, so-to-speak.

More-or-less fear, on my part, that I wouldn't be able to hop right back in the groove of where I left off. So after talking to a few friends about it, I finally came to the realization that art is more about if the creator feels his or her artwork meets their own standards, as compared to what other people feel about it. At least in the independent area, where as the commercial department of art relies more heavily on if a particular party thinks you make the part or not, but I wont go into that right now.

Anyway, When I first came here to sheezyart I was always wanting others to view my artwork, more-or-less as a popularity thing than anything else. But as I grew as an artist I slowly began to break away from that Idea and began to produce what I wanted too. Then low-and-behold more people seemed to enjoy my work more that I was thinking on my own two feet rather than trying to please everybody.

During my time away I would always fantasize about drawing, animating, etc, etc, etc. But when I did finally manage to get some free time, It was that fear of not being able to meet peoples expectations that I had already established for myself here at sheezy. I'd even started working on animations but ended up stopping because of this fear. This is a fear that I think many artists go through in one shape or another. It is also quite unfortunate that some great artists never manage to pick themselves up and after such events and end their art career/ hobby all together.

Surprisingly, it turns out all I needed was to look through my art gallery and see the work I had already completed to remind myself what being an artist, at least according to what I've learned on my own, is all about.

I have grown a lot as an artist, and admittedly, a HUGE part of that comes from the great people I have met here at sheezy. To each I would consider my own brother/ sister amongst the art community.

Of-course, sheezyart isn't a perfect art location. You have your typical "anti-whatever" groups here and there. But when you think about it, there aren't many places you can go where these groups don't exist. Ya just gotta take things as they are and just keep truckin'

My special thanks to all who have been by my side during this adventure as a growing artist.

Better days are ahead guys, better days!

~~[Edit]~~
It's freakin 4:30am and I feel great! Super fantastic!
I hope anybody reading this feels fantastic too
(no, that wasn't a statement of sarcasm)