Posted

Oct 11th 2008

Mood

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Ohgod. Antidepressants are interesting.

Took my pill yesterday around 7:15 AM.

First period comes around. About halfway through I start feeling a bit nauseous. Kay, just normal side effects, I say to myself.

Second period. I start feeling a bit dizzy. And I get this odd numb sensation all over. It felt like my equilibrium was going totally off. I couldn't think quite clearly. Kay, getting a little weirder.

Third period, that feeling started to ebb off a bit. I didn't have my instrument for band, so i was just sitting in a corner drawing and listening to Muse.

Lunch. I start feeling kinda tired and out of it again. Didn't eat anything.

Fourth period. Good lord, I felt like I was on cocaine. I couldn't stop moving my leg, my teeth kept clenching, my mind kept racing, I felt numb all over, every muscle in my body was tensed. I couldn't think straight. I felt very weak and dizzy and tired, but at the same time i felt like i needed to just. Gah. JAgjhdgfk. Explode. Something. Anything. I was about to kill someone.

That started to stop a bit near the end of the class, although I still felt pretty out of it. I just felt kinda numb and drunk, basically.

So I stand out on the fence and wait for my dad to get there. About an hour later it comes back. With a vengeance. And didn't go away for like, 2 hours. And I was stuck in a car. Guh. My teeth are still sore from clenching.

Got home around 6:20 or something. Still felt shakey and numb and tense, but I could feel it starting to ease off. I looked in the mirror and my pupils were absolutely enormous. Lol.

Uh. I was told to take a nap, and although I thought I couldn't, I did.

Woke up and felt much better. I was kidnapped by my friend Chrissy in her new Integra she got yesterday.

Got home a little while later and was laying in bed. Started feeling really dizzy again, every time I'd open my eyes my room would spin. It felt sorta like after I passed out from week-long starvation and thirst.

Then after that things started to get better.

At least I didn't feel sad and hopeless and tired all day, huh.

Ahaha.