Posted

Oct 10th 2008

Bang. Like a shot to the head is how i currently feel. One of my closest friends is slipping out of my grasp and i can't stand it. she's losing her mind and she's blinded to see who she's hurting. I feel so numb and so upset. I can't think straight right now.


So basically one of my best friends who i hold extremely close to my heart and i would possibly die if she ever left my life for good has called me to tell me she is in the crisis center. she's been having some problems lately with her mental status and meghan and i have been trying to help her but we haven't made a dent. And now shes in the crisis center tonight saying she was having some self destructive thoughts and her mom took her there followed by the police and an ambulance. I can't even explain the emotions going through my brain right now. My biggest fear is losing those close to me. i really hope she isn't in there long because i might break and lose it. tomoro in school is going to be utter hell . anyone who asks me where she is i might break out and cry right there and i really wanna avoid that.

When she reads this: you know who you are and i love you dearly i really do i hope the crisis center helps you where we couldnt and i hope we are able to visit you. i'll miss you and i love you so much. please call me when you can and tell me whats going on. PLease get a hold of me somehow, Call me soon. Please. I Love You..Our rubber band bond will stand strong through this and w'ell constantly be thinking of you. NO matter what we'll think of you always.


Thanks you for listening to my vent.