Posted

Sep 24th 2008

This journal is occasioned by a number of incidents on and off Sheezy. The items read on Sheezy have NOTHING to do with any of my watchers and I will not name them. I do not wish to promote them, or to start a fight with anybody. If you think you recognize yourself or anybody else...keep it to yourself. It's the underlying attitudes I think bear mention, not the individuals who got on the bandwagon.

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I must say it is disheartening to look around here and see the sheer amount of bile vented towards those who do not agree with the usual beliefs ascribed to artists or intelligent people or what have you.

Who gave anybody the right to suppose that a person who is creative must give that talent only to the left? Who gave anybody the right to suppose that talents given to tradition are squandered, that their endeavors are not truly creative?

And that's not all. I am tired of the absolute, vicious stream of hatred I have seen for eight years as if all the ills of the world can be traced to one person on the face of this earth. I see no one able to look at the past eight years and see a record comprised of both successes and failures, who can see a balanced picture of where we have been and where we are going.

I am not brainwashed. I do not see perfection. But at the same time, I do not see oblivion.

No, it seems that to most people I talk to, there is no room for seeing the systemic nature of the failures in our nation. Or for acknowledging the successes. The places where we really ARE moving the right direction, where plans are going right. Bet that makes the men and women on the ground feel just great.

Earlier this month, seven years ago, I was changed even though the changes in me are nothing compared to what others have known. I do not know who I would have been had all of my idealism and hope for the future not been destroyed. It is hard to admit, but that day turned me bitter inside once I saw the way people responded--not by laying aside their quarrels with each other, but by intensifying them, by becoming so partisan, so petty, so unbelievably hateful that there was no longer any such thing as a mistake, even a major one.

No, everything was a fucking conspiracy, to hear some people tell it.

As if anybody would ENJOY murdering their own.

Those very people who accuse others of creating demons to fight against seem to have to do the very same thing to get attention.

I am angry that if you do a search for 9-11 these days, the conspiracy crap actually OUTRANKS the genuine information.

And then there's that other mania that seems to have seized hold of the country.

That somehow all of this came to rest upon ONE SINGLE PERSON as if a whole SYSTEM of fuck-ups for YEARS upon YEARS upon YEARS upon YEARS never occurred. Now, I'm not giving anybody a pass here. There's enough blame and enough responsibility to go around.

But for God's sake, DROP the obsession with the idea that only ONE PERSON is responsible for every damn thing that's wrong in this world.

And drop the fucking conspiracy theories. It's disgusting.