Posted

Sep 10th 2008

Mood

Tired

This morning that's what I got called, an egotist. But due to being tired at the time, I simply deleted the comment and had a long nap and planned to make a journal about it when I woke up.

Now why is it I am suddenly full of ego just because I wanted to know what someone thought of my picture? I spent a lot of effort just to finish it like I promised I would months ago, and since I sat down and finished the rest of it in one sitting until my fingers were aching, don't you think faving and running would feel a little shitty?

And if I am full of ego, then my reason for joining Sheezy Art and deviantART doesn't exist. Think about it and remember, why did I join these sites? For feedback, particularly constructive criticism. Coming across people who will critic my work is rare, but I put up with it as long as someone will give me tips to improve. Hell, I even put up with trolls and flamers and still post, because just a detailed comment related to the work I post is good enough.

And people get stuck up at me because I really don't seem to like favs. This is because I am an extremely curious person, if I don't know why my work was liked, it makes me go a little nuts sometimes.

If you hate my "ego" that much, just don't go near my works or page. Or if you like, I could just drop off the internet in terms of art like I originally planned some weeks ago. Why did I change my mind in the first place? Because I still want critic.

But on another unrelated note, I am starting to notice I just don't like Sonic much anymore, and I don't like anime much anymore. Haven't watched or read anything to do with those in months. I have also been trying to break any possible excuse for my art to be considered anime, and the only way to do that seems to be to exaggerate and give no eye colour. All because I draw shiny eyes and normal proportioned bodies with slight exaggeration. One little shiny and instant anime, well think about this, inspiration from Disney started the "shiny desu"ness of known anime you've known over the years. So is Disney considered anime too?

But back to the comment and fav thing. Apparently, all I can do is draw, I suck at everything else, and even still, my anatomy sucks. And art is one of my only available job choices now, so this makes me need critic even more. Yeah, I imagine I won't live long with art as a job with my skills. But my mother says I should do something art related for a job.

Originally, I never wanted art as a job because I thought it would kill the fun in it. And I never come up with anything good unless I am sleep deprived because that's when all my best ideas flow in. So I feel pretty much doomed.

TL;DR: I am full of ego just because I want feedback despite it being one of my main reasons for joining the site in the first place. And I am doomed. And you are lazy.