Posted

Sep 4th 2008

Mood

Hopeful

I'm a bitch, everyone knows so. No girl can get me down from high chair I'm sitting on and warming. I told and knew, like I always do, the pain could only make me stronger. To overcome difficulties- it may be the meaning of life. Here, I found one, now you can all fuck me. I'm good when I'm good, and better when I'm bad. And this is one of the things I shouldn't forget, shouldn't give up on. I have to remember it's all within me. Right now I'm holding a situation without breaking it, I've learnt the power of fragility and the work of my hands.
Today I'm standing up high, yet to float but not touching the ground. I've managed to crawl out from the hole I've beenburied in, just like I always do. Just give me your support and there you have me. It's not like you didn't give me anything, nor threw a bone every once in a while. But just like that cliche I guess your love is not enough. I cannot stand with my eyes wide open and say there was something good there, nor there was something. I took you too personally but I'm lucky to be surrounded in a circle of those who know when to caress. So you hurt me. So this wound is still scabbing. So maybe I'm fooling myself saying that I'm better; but I am better. And the only thing I want you to know is what you've lost. I was yours for a single moment, but I'm like a wandering bird and my heart does have wings. When it's cold there's no reason for me to stay. And when I'll find that warmth I won't forget to spit it at your face. This is not a revenge, it's only for you to understand what it's like to be on the other side of the world. Remember more than you'd like to forget.

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