Posted

Jul 22nd 2008

Mood

Bitter

Music

Santogold - "Creator"

Having nothing to do all day but job hunt and socilise is driving me mad.
SOME ONE GIVE ME A JOB :<
I really got my hopes up about a tattoo and peircing apprenticeship... but by the looks of it I'll have to endure months of my mother nagging at me to get a job and do some thing with my life if I'm to keep holding on for that particular one.
Which in fairness, I probably will have been rejected over and over again by then and still not have a job.
Life in school was so much easier, they had to give me some thing to do. Now People have to want me to do some thing.
Other than the money flow issues due to lack of job and unbearable amount of free time combine with parental 'encouragment' (encouragment being code for putting me down and doing nothing but nag)... Life is treating me... with average standerds that are continuing to slip.
Explanation? Sure I am in a happy relationship and have grate friends- but depression is a disease that causes stress not just for the depressed, but for the people close to them. By the goodness of my heart I drain my money and energy into trying to make things that little bit happier- but that doesn't matter, life still sucks if your depressed. And I think the disease may even be air born at this point I am not safe.
Other than the lack of job and ever growing mass of disease, my life contains nothing.
Appologies for the lack of art, but my life does come first and I'm also trying to broaden my area of art (That means I'm trying to draw other things than my characters, anthomorphics and play more with styles - so I'm out my comfort zone and may not have anything worth uploading soon).