Posted

Jan 10th 2005

Mood

Happy

Music

Green Day: Holiday

Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like so much in your life is finally right? Okay, so I'm still in the wrong major, but I'll make the best of it. I'm still dirt poor, but I'm working on that. I'll have a tax return coming in soon which will make my life a bit easier. My cell phone....fucked. I'm missing half my calls because it chooses to never ring. I'm lonely at the moment, but that will change soon too.

I've got yet another boyfriend. Yes, another. I know, I go through them. This time it feels right though. This time it feels perfect. He lives in Ohio now unfortunately, but even that will change soon. He made a comment today. He's coming in Friday, and I'm not sure yet if I have to work or not, but if I did, then he had made a comment about coming home to him. It sounded right. I can't think of anything that sounded that great in my life. Have you ever had those feelings?

I've known him for years, we've always gotten along great and been good friends. There's even a chance I knew him long before we thought since my grandparents used to live where he does now and I remember some kid and the whole area and what not from our memories sounds way too similar. I guess I'm just a hopeless sap when I say I hope it was him that I played with all those Thanksgivings ago. That would seem like it were something out of a book.

The scary thing is......he's calming me down. I'm getting soft again. We're not sure if thats a good thing or not, but he says it is. hehe Gotta love the other nine voices in my head.

Its not been long, I know, but I'm in love, and I'm loving every second of it. He's like the guy that I always dreamed about, and he's brought new inspiration to my life. I'm wanting to write and draw more again, and not as much with blood as before, though there will still be blood, have faith in that. hehe