Posted

May 9th 2008

Mood

Apologetic

Well...I think it's about time that I own up to something I should have owned up to a long time ago...and should have stopped, too.

Not a lot of people might know or remember her, but there was a person by the name of "Reka-chan" dabbling around DA, SA, SMFA, and even was on In and Out of Darkness for a while. Some noticed her art style was similar to mine...well, that's because it was me.

I feel like a total bastard for not saying anything sooner and for letting it drag on for so long, but she was kind of the person I wanted to be. I was hiding my own insecurities behind a fake persona and...well, I've finally decided I needed to be a man and admit to that. This has gone on way too long and I feel like I really need to stop it.

So, it's finally ending here. I've tried several times to let Reka disappear, but I simply couldn't do it. I think it was, again, due to my own insecurities and, even though I'm still insecure about a lot of things, circumstances have changed. I've done a lot of bad things through her and it's really making me feel like a total dickweed for putting on this charade for as long as I have...

For those of you who liked her, watched her art, did art for her: I would like to sincerely apologize. This has been riding heavily on my heart for a LONG time now, and it's about damn time that I fess up to this and take the blame for doing this.

You're all welcome to hate me, but I ask for forgiveness from the bottom of my heart. It's finally time that I suck it in and deal with it first-hand and finally let that persona die while I allow myself to try and over-come my insecurities on my own, instead of hiding behind a fake persona.

So yeah. That's my confession and I still feel like a total jackass for holding on to her for so long, and I'm truly sorry for anyone who's hurt by this.

Thanks for listening.

EDIT: I might upload some of the "art" she's done...because I really like the style and I hope to do some of it for me...