Posted

Mar 6th 2008

The bills are done for this pay, and it seems it's already been spent before we even had the check deposited. It's hard to not worry, because we've cut back so much -- We don't eat out much, or spend frivolously, but just keeping our heads above the water's getting harder and harder. I'm just gonna have to stop this silly pickiness about wanting to decorate cakes, and just take whatever comes my way. I'm sure things will be fine, either way, but it makes me wonder if moving to California will work.

I want it to be God's plan for us so much, but I feel like we're being warned with all this difficulty. I've had things like this happen before, and when I forge on anyway and do what I want to do, it never ends well. I dunno, I'm probably just over-thinking. That's such a big problem with me on some days, and on others, I feel like I don't do it enough.

On a happier note, it feels like my block is gone, and I'm very please about that -- It feels like for the first time in a couple of years, I'm excited about my art again. If that's not a rarity, I dunno what is. It's just one of many things I still have to be thankful for. I just have to remember that and I'll be fine, no matter where I am.