Posted

Dec 25th 2007

Mood

Shaky

Music

"putting holes in happiness" by marilyn manson

so. that last journal? written at 2 in the morning. i should know better. i always get that way at night if there's no one around. the only thing is, that only used to happen at night. it's been carrying into the day of late. not as bad, but still there, lurking. i want to simultaneously crawl out of my skin, be buried, and be warmly embraced by multiple loved ones. i seriously think a fucking hug--i lied. not a hug. i want to be held by a friend that really loves me. i know who those people are. i'm pretty sure they do, too. i want SOMEONE to be here. no one lives around me. the closest is ten minutes by car, AND NONE OF US DRIVE. which sucks sweaty fat-kid balls. ugh. SOMEONE COME STEAL ME AND MAKE ME SPEND CHRISTMAS WITH YOU IF YOUR PARENTS ARE OKAY WITH IT. seriously. my mom is on the other side of the country, my dad works all day, and i'm not too keen on spending a LOT of time with him. i mean, i don't mind him so much anymore, but i still don't want to spend christmas with him. GJAGLJNADFGLJNSGF
by the way. i've developed theme songs for Shali and Fallon.
Shali's is "Step Aside For the Man". duh.
Fallon's is "Putting Holes In Happiness", which, you'll notice, i'm listening to. because i downloaded it. because it's Fallon's song. AND I LOVE IT. and i still need that embrace. SKDFJAG

caitlin out.