Posted

Nov 22nd 2007

Mood

Carefree

Wow-wee...
I haven't posted here in awhile .... well, awhile for me. I've been playing a lot of Spyro and other such video games lately. Also, I tend to go to D.A a lot more (most of my IRL friends go there c: )

So, anyway... I'm kind of disappointed with myself. I mentioned awhile ago that I was having an arguement with a friend. Well, at the time of the arguement, I was so frustrated that she couldn't just leave me alone long enough to calm down, and she acted like I had no good reason to be mad, that I never said what i really wanted to her. I'm not going to tell every thing about the arguement, and the whole issue, it was just something stupid that got blow out of porportion because my so_called friend is very confrontational and bull-headed, and so am I. Basically, the whole arguement she was pointing out flaws and telling me how stupid I am (hell, she even started out in a rude manner). After basically pointing out all my flaws, she tried to cover it up by saying "I love you like a sister" and other such BS. Why does this bug me? I'm not saying I'm not a bit like this, but said friend is insanely two-faced. She''l pretend to be someone's best friend, and when they aren't around she'll insult the hell out of them, basically stating that she hates that person. So, I always wondered if she really hated me. Well, in that fight, she finally showed me what she really thinks of me. We haven't talked for weeks. I don't care if she wants to talk to me, I'm not angry at her, I'm not holding a grudge, I'm just disappointed that I was too pissed to handle the issue in a better way. I tend to do this a lot when I argue with friends, and I think it's something I could improve on, but for right now... if this friend wants to completely discard me, I could understand. It's not my problem anymore.

Other than that? Nothing has really been going on. I've been in a better mood recently, and I don't know why 8D. It's odd.