Posted

Nov 7th 2007

Mood

Worthless

Music

falling in the black -Skillet

I'm on a freakin' emotional rollercoaster today and it's pissing me off.

This morning I was happy, then sad, then pissed, then sad, then depressed, then emo, then mad, and now I'm fine. WTF?

Anyway, sorry for lying! I said I'd put pics up on Sunday and I phailed at that. I did scan them, but was too tired to put them up so I didn't and now it's wednesday.

In other news, I'm writing a story (not fanfiction) but I dun think I'm going to put it up here becuase I keep rewriting the first chapter and may never finish it so *shrugs*

Wewt! Meh first quarter ish almost done! it ends next thrusday and then I get a week and a half off. *dances like the moron I am*

Okay, I'm done now....

EDIT
Okay so I'm adding onto the journal becuase I don't wanna put up a new one.

So now I'm about to cry becuase for the first time in a long while, He came back over and started arguing with me for sitting here. I hate him, and he knows this, but he thinks it's fun to try and get on my nerves. Just the fact that he's not out of my family's life yet is enough of a reason for me to get pissed off.

But today he wanted to try and argue with me becuase I wouldn't say hi today. I never say hi to him anymore. I don't talk to him if I can avoid it.

Then my mom got home and they started talking about the divorce getting restarted. the bastard started filling my little brothers mind with lies again, saying shit like 'it's your mom's fault you won't get to see daddy anymore, she's being a bitch again.' 'I'm going to get custody of you and we're going to live life without your bitchy mom.' he's says more but I don't remember it all 'cause I'm stressing again.

I hate my life. I wish I could put it on pause for now, I really need some extra rest and quiet time where I can focus only on me and be able to go where ever I want. I just need...alone time in a dark place. ^^ cuz I love the dark.