Posted

Jun 25th 2007

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Suicidal

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I PROMISE THAT YOU SHALL RECEIVE MORE THAN JUST JOURNALS SOON. D> I JUST HAVE NO INSPIRATION OR MOTIVATION TO DRAW/COLOR RIGHT NOW.

I noticed that I’ve been on dA a lot more than Sheezy ever since I got subbed. :/ If you watch me on Sheezy and you have a dA would you mind watching me there? Sankyuu. I have more art over there too.

Messengers still ksjdvbd so now I have to rely on quizes to entertain me. I organized my pictures and documents earlier. Yay me.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someone’s eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
-Eh. I’m not good with eye contact at all but I’d say confessing to someone.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. Why were you angry?
-…Hmm… I haven’t been REALLY angry for a while. The last time I was mildly angry though was a couple days ago. I was mad at Corey’s little sister. Corey and Donut know why. :]

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You get enough time to make ONE phone call. Who would you call?
-My mom. Definitely.

4. You are at the doctor's office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. (1) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? (2) What do you do with your remaining days? (3) Would you be afraid?
- (1) Well, mom would already know since she would end up going to the doctor’s with me. She’d tell the rest of the clan. Then I’d let some of my closer friends know.
(2) Tell my parents about yaoi and my ZoLu obsession. Then buy some doujinshis. I’ll probably end up buying a boat too. The S.S. Skitchies. Nice.
(3) I would probably be more scared of what trouble my death would cause to my family and friends than scared of me actually dying. The only worry I would have for myself would be if my going would be extremely painful or not.

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust/love. Which do you choose?
-Trust. It’s hard to come by nowadays. People just use and abuse you most of the time then toss you out and move on to their next target. *shrug*

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you save it?
-Damn right I do. Screw work, a life is more important. My boss will understand, and if they didn’t then I wouldn’t be working for them.

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her?
-I wouldn’t be unfaithful. BUT, if I were then probably yes… maybe.

8. Have you ever thought about death/wished you hadn’t been born?
-Yeah. More than once. Not because my life is pointless and patheticâ€"even though it is. Just out of curiosity. “What exactly has changed because of me? Who have I really helped? Would it make any difference? What if I died today? Who would miss me?” Those kinds of things.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give 1 hour of yours.
-Hmm… I’m not sure. Not because it would mean me giving up an hour of my life though. Mainly because (a) That’s such a tease. (b) People can’t avoid death. When it’s your time, it’s your time. (c) It may do more hurt than it was intended to heal. Can you imagine having the families of the deceased having to go through the death AGAIN? Unless the person had something important they NEEDED to tell in order to pass on peacefully, no.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
-Sometimes.

11. Does love = sex?
-No. Sex = Lust. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. Love = Trust.

12. Your boss tells your co-worker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your co-worker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company?
-Depends on if I have enough money to get me by until I can find another job.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you feel?
-I haven’t got a clue. I don’t think I ever really HAVE told anyone honestly how I feel. I don’t even know HONESTLY how I feel most of the time.

14. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
-Telling someone I love them and really meaning it in a romantic way. Cause Kacy doesn’t play the love game. >_>

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
-The hardest thing for me to give up would probably be life or something. Maybe not MY life but the life of another.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them?
-Yesterdayish when I said it to mum and Donut and Fred and Becca and Corey.

17. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you have "no regrets" what would you change?
- There'd be too many things I'd want to choose from. I hate being dreadfully indecisive.

18. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
-Probably my brother. Cause he’d have no regrets mauling the person if it was a burglar.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
-Yes.

20. You are holding onto your grandmother's hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other which one would it be?
-I could haul both of them up. xD My grandma’s really light and the baby probably is too. But if I had to pick one then I wouldn’t put it past my Mamaw to let go herself so I could save the infant. I dunno. Who am I to get to decide and pass judgment over who lives and who dies?

21. Are you old fashioned?
-Sometimes.

22. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a heart break or have never loved before?
-Well if it’s true love for both me and the person then why is there a heartbreak involved?

23. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
-I wish I could beatbox. :/