Posted

Dec 15th 2004

Mood

Shaky

I'm adding a thousand entries because I feel like it. I feel like crying right now I'm so mad. Thats it. I'm done. I'm closing myself back up and living in my own private little shell. At least my shell didn't pull this shit. Its bad when I don't even give a fuck if I never draw again in my life.

No wait. I'm not going to let a couple of assholes like those two ruin my life. Fuck em both. I'm better off without. Betrayed or not, I'm still a better person now. I'm going to go to bed, and then I'll wake up tomorrow happy because I'm not letting you get to me. I'm not letting you two ruin my life, my happiness that I've had up till today.

I still feel like crying though. Thats one more scar on my heart. One more that will never totally heal. If I had anymore alcohol I'd drink myself to oblivion, but I am alone. No one is here to take care of me. It feels like high school all over again. I thought I was at a point in my life where people would be more mature than that.