- Posted
- Apr 17th 2007
- Mood
- Bitter
- Music
- Animal I Have Become - Three Days Grace
Wow, I haven't updated my journal in awhile.
So... what' up? This semester is my second half of Sophomore year. I need this semester to end. On a primal, instinctual level, I need this hell to end!!! That's what this is, pure, unfiltered, raw hell. I took three separate art courses (Drawing II, Painting I, and Intro to Digital Arts) this time around, and they have been eating me whole. The teachers all seem to collaborate their deadlines into one brutal crunch! And they're not small projects, either! Paint a carefully detailed self-portrait in the style of Gustav Klimt, turn in a portfolio of at least 5 14 x 36 drawings, complete a video production project. Hahahahah! I think I've been desensitized to stress. I just don't feel it anymore, and I don't care. I love drawing, but there's only been one project I've worked on this semester that I enjoyed. I don't mind Digital Arts, and I am quite familiar with FinalCut Pro. FinalCut is professional software, usually costing at least a grand... and I'm proficient in it! Wow... intense kudos to Mrs. Kaiper, my TV Production teacher in High School.
Oh, but then there's painting. I honestly hate painting with a passion seen in me. It infuriates me how I can never seem to produce anything decent. I mean, this semester is really the first time I've ever tried painting, but a similar handicap doesn't seem to stop other newbs in the class from producing an occasional good piece. I hate how it's so imprecise, and yet, some painters can make this shit look better than photorealistic. I hate how its toxic (since I'm using oil paints), and I have how it smells. I hate how expensive it is to buy paints, canvases, and all other manner of utility!! And finally, I utterly despise how long it takes to finish a single piece. When I sit down and draw, I have a basic understanding of how long a piece will take. With painting, I estimate one whole day and wind up needing three. Die, paint! Die!
...maybe I wouldn't have such an issue if I could use watercolors. I really love the free, sort dreamy appearance they have on paper. Also, an artist named Marshroots on DeviantArt can produce god-quality art via watercolor + Prisma. Man, I want to learn how to do that!! *sigh* I wish school would fuck off so that I can have some time to practice arts and do my own stuff for awhile.
*giggle* The irony there is that, without a deadline, I'd never get anything done. Wow... I am a collection of living ironies.
