Posted

Feb 3rd 2007

Mood

Depressed

Music

I wish it were death...

I hate myself... I hate how my life is going. I know in the morning or two days I won't feel this way, but right now, I feel like I'm going through the worst depression I've ever been through. Anyone that askes if it's their fault or says that it's because Tyler dumped me, I'll hunt you down, kill you, then feed your liver to your mother... That should tell you right there that I'm not feeling too good. It has nothing to do with people, it has to do with all the things I have to do. This is the first time in my life I hate going to school... I used to love it! But now I hate it... I don't want to kill the teachers, or burn it down, I just want it to end quickly so I can just stay home for a month gaining back my strength. I'm tired, I have too many projects to do... the only thing that keeps me going is reading, which I'm getting a lot better at... I read the Two Towers and The Return of the King in less than two months... it took that long to read the Hobbit! I'm reading a book with my sister and reading it faster than her... although, I do have a bit more free time... but only because I'm too tired to do the other things that I need to do... I need to work out more... not because I think I'm fat, I've never really thought that... but because I don't want to pass out in P.E.... it's been 6 years since I was in P.E. last... muscles don't keep after that long... ~sighs~ I wish one or two of you knew where Centralia is... and that you lived close by... then I'd have someone more to talk to... ;-; I need more calls from people... I like talking on the phone now... if you really want my phone number, send me a PM... I'll tell you the number... ~goes to take a shower~ bye