Posted

Nov 15th 2006

Mood

Tired

Music

"a promise to return" - bsgs2 soundtrack

yeeeeesh it's been a very long couple of months. here are some new things of newness that are also new.

so i've been freaking out since school started about this portfolio review that basically decided whether i'd get into/could stay in the communication design program, getting things together and tweaking old projects and making some new ones. they kept pushing the date back and basically i was a ball of stress on the verge of a small meltdown from mid-september on through to last friday, which was the actual review. it was quick and a whole lot more painless than i expected, and they ended up looking at a lot of my older work more than anything else which seemed a little weird, but hey whatever. then i went home and stressed out for approximately 24 hours until i got an email from the review board saying i got in and spent the rest of the weekend freaking out like crazyhappy. i've been worrying about this since the beginning of last semester, back before summer. it's a huge relief to have it over, even more so to actually be IN. (just for general reference, i'm majoring in communication design, which is sorta like graphic design only with web design and other media besides just printed work, so i'm not really going for drawing or anything i do that gets posted up here, because i admit i'm not great at that and i just do it for fun. design is my one twoo wuv. ) i really had a hard time feeling like i belonged in school at all before, and now i feel tons better about it. i really like what i do every day.

wrist is still angrybroken-y. i keep getting kicked around between doctors, none of whom really care enough to actually do anything about it, which is just so very joyful an experience to have. meanwhile, i am out of pain meds and patience and um. a working hand. which makes a lot of stuff hard to work on, art included, even though it isn't my dominant hand. i feel unbalanced. :<

which is mainly why i haven't been doing a lot of art, i guess. mostly between the less-than-functional hand and working on my portfolio, i've been either too out of time or too much in pain to do a whole lot. i hate using it as an excuse for not updating the comic or posting anything else, but that's really all it is and until someone actually bothers to actually figure out what it is, i guess i'm going to have to get used to it. i do not like this. i feel like i'm getting out of touch with my characters and my art and it bothers me a whole lot. however, i have been working when i can, and i do have the next set of pages in progress, it's just been really hard to make enough progress at once and none of them are done. i'm hoping to have at least two up by the time saturday is out this week.

so life has been exciting, painful, and frustrating all at once lately. excitipainstrating? frustcitiful? something like that. either way, i'm on my way back.