Posted

Oct 9th 2006

Mood

Dead

I am going completely out of my fucking mind with college. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, not counting the usually hour-long drive to and then from, I'm at school from 9:00am to 8:50pm. Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, I have to go in for an hour and a half for Japanese... which is so fucking hard and fast-paced, I simply can't keep up.

Problem is, I'm in the honors program, so I need to keep a GPA of at least 3.5 to stay in it and keep my scholarships. Along with that, my parents aren't making things any easier, constantly hovering over me and pestering me and sometimes pretending interest in what I'm learning (when I know they're full of shit) and my mom's control-freakishness is causing a LOT of friggin problems. I'm an adult and she's setting BEDTIME SCHEDULES for me. Due to this, I get fucked over a lot with assignments because I NEED TIME to do them and she won't give me any. Not to mention she has to give me 10 things to do when I'm trying to get my work done and totally flips out if I don't call her between every class and tell her every detail of everything I did. It's like highschool, but WORSE!

And that's not what pisses me off most. She constantly promised me that after "insert task or time here", I wouldn't have a bedtime schedule ever again. Well, she lied her ass off repeatedly. "YOU'RE NOT MATURE ENOUGH!" Okay... so I can only have "freedom" if I just do exactly what you wanted without you directly ordering me to. What fucking bullshit I have to deal with!

And to make me even miserable, Halloween is on a Thursday... the day I'm at school until 9. My favorite fucking day of the year ruined by these elitist bastards. After I complained while the class was going over the revised calendar that I would be in school all day on Halloween and wanted to go out with my friends, my high-and-might, egotistical prick of a teacher said that I had to throw out childish notions and learn to mature, for that is what I was sent to college for.

I really wanted to fucking punch this asshole. Just because no one likes him enough to invite him to frolic around with get candy doesn't mean I shouldn't be allowed to. Motherfucking prick.

Also, I have no time to draw anything decent anymore... And I must go study more japanese because I have a test tomorrow... that I will probably fail