Posted

Jun 15th 2006

Mood

Heartbroken

Music

Andrea Bocelli- Can't Help falling in love

Well, good note, Friend bought me the new Andrea Bocelli album.. so far i have them all.. even the one given out by Victoria secret. Other than that.. no good news.. i need birthcontrol because my periods have been getting worse and worse, so 1 pill.. And i need Neurontin for my neuropathy ok, maybe 4 pills a day now, and an anti spazzing pill for my bladder which has been hurting all the time for no reason, so about 5 pills along with vitamins and possible calcium pills. none of which i have the money for. I had an opportunity for 200$/day for 8 or so days at an art school as a nude model but i love my fiance too much to go against his wishes and do it. he stated his formal unhappiness with it, so i wont do it. My art doesnt sell.. at all... and i cant stand or really do anything long enough to work as a simple cashier.. i get worn out just standing up. i wish the job i had as secretary was permanent, but that didnt last.. stupid temp job. i now need contacts and ive been trying to ebay stuff but i have a problem trying to charge people too much for something that's worth nothing .,.

i wish things would just work out. i cant take another blow medically.. i just cant :pats small body: at least i have my fiance and pets heh

thanks to everyone who watch me, it's much appriciated.