Posted

May 18th 2006

Mood

Enthusiastic

I don't believe it!!! I'm *actually* turning 21! HOLY HECK TIME GOES BY TOO FAST!!!

It just recently hit me after my BioLabFinal tonight that I was going to be 21 at midnight. O_O;; It felt so far away a week ago! I mean.... Wow. Time does NOT stand still for you when you study like I do... So... to come out of a final and realize you're going to be 21 is kinda shocking.

So.... here I am... Gonna be 21 in 15 minutes. What do I do to celebrate the moment? Sing? Dance? Draw? Sleep? I should sleep. I'm gonna take a shower after this, but as of now I am doing my final count down to where I can become an adult. Scary....

Still, a number is just a number. No matter how old I become, if I stay young on the inside that's what counts. Still, reviewing my life up to date... I find it difficult to fathom that I, Lislis, am finally about to become a legal adult. Am I really the same person? I'm scaring myself. I shouldn't over think it, but I can't help it, y'know? I'm gonna be freakin' 21!!

Not like I cared at first. I really didn't. I never, ever plan to get drunk. So to me it's no biggie. But then I thought again. It's not the fact that you can get drunk legally that makes it significant. It marks the time when you are OFFICIALLY an ADULT. O_O Looking back on my life, and how much I've changed and grown, and will keep changing, I think it's incredible... There are times I wish I could turn back the clock, or stop aging. I really would have loved to be 17 forever. Or 16. All of my adolescent years were eye-opening for me.

But what am I talking about- it's not like my Roarin' 20's won't be eye-opening, either! Still.... Time goes by so fast. I can't believe it... I wish I could be a kid again at so many points. But. The way I see it, the way things turn out on my 21st is a mark of who I am. What I mean is, the number of people wanting to celebrate with me despite finals shows a lot.

....Less than 6 minutes. Wow. Tomorrow is soon. The moment of truth is near. I'm so excited... and yet so tripped out at the same time! What awaits me in life next?! What role in society will I play? So much potential! Man.... I know I'm just blabbing, but blabbing is all I feel I can do. I never had any time to prepare for this moment. No time to do a big birthday drawing, update Guya's World, nothing. I barely had time to shop for Katty and Fishie! Time just ticks by without me.... Especially now. So this is all I can do. Anyway. Thank you for listening to me blab. I'll go countdown now.... TTFN!