Posted

May 3rd 2006

Mood

Empty

Music

beeping.. er computers. yeah.

Last night was interesting.. Well i wont be able to get online at my computer anymore, my dad pulled my wireless internet thingy, and i have no idea where he put it, so right now i'm at school, yeah.

Well at least i'll have time to work on CGs since i wont be distracted by the internet probably get some layout done for my website.., i hope he gives me my fucking internet back on saturday after the SAT tho,... because honestly taking the internet from me is like cutting my fucking arm, and it's bleeding right now. it's bleeding massively.

So today i took the Math written final, i wrote like 4 pages explaining how to do 2 freaking math problems, i was so freaking detailed i hope he gives me a good grade, i love explaining how to do math but i would never see myself as a teacher, really, i cant stand people when they dont understand what i mean, and that is why i could never be a teacher, even if it really gives me much pleasure to see someone understand something i explain.

yeah that made no sense, *sigh* well right now im working on my School project website... it's due the 12, i have the layout set down, i used Xian for the layout, here is a screen shot.



the buttons are rollovers, they change redish when you go over them.. i really like dreamweaver, too bad i dont have it at home, i could really use it, although i'm in love with notepad still... ..wah i dont know.

I had the US history written final yesterday..it was ok i guess, had to write about the great depression, it was quite interesting to do.

I got my first ragnarok commission last night from.. blade, yeah i'll work hard on it and try to give it to you by Sunday, i hope my dad gives me the internet back by then.

I'm tired, didnt get much sleep last night, all i did was sit there and stare at the celining thinking about everything yet nothing, and i turned the volume down on my alarm clock.. i woke up at 6:20am, when i usualy wake up at 5:00am, so i had to run around like i was on crack to get ready for school.

I still need to read up to chapter 5 of the great gatsby, i have a quiz on it last period.. so yeah, i like the book, its quite interesting and it makes me happy in some way, but i'm messed up at the head and keep couple-ing up Nick and Gatsby, i think they make a cute couple, but you know like it's never gonna happen lmao. this is not a shounen-ai novel, and i doubt they will make us read one of those at school, go figure.

I finished reading huck finn, it was a nice book, my teacher keeps bitching about how racist Huck was, but i dont really think he was racist, he was small and didnt know any better, right? he was cute, and the ending was nice, in the end Jim was free, so it was all alright, Tom was interesting i really enjoyed him, every single bit of Tom was great, he's such a hopeless romantic.

...i have the need of. bitch slapping someone. i'm quite confused on how my nature works. I wanna go to french now.. i wonder how Gabriel did his math written final, he makes me feel ok when i go to french class, he's so funny it's very conforting.

asides from the fact that he's a jerk, and calls me a jerk too, we are all jerky, but that's okay. he's like my only friend asides from Sudeki ... at lunch. Sudeki and Gabriel, are...the only people i actually talk to at school, sometimes Gabi more than Sude.. ..Gabi is going back to another school soon though, bleh, i wanna go to canada, and start over, i really do... all these freaking new laws they wanna pass for hispanics and immigrants here are just so frustrating, i need a hug, but i might end up hitting whoever hugs me so i dont know what to do, i just feel like shit, it's one of those days, one of those weeks, one of those moments, when i want to be alone and yet be the fucking center of your universe. does not work that way does it, yeah cause it makes no sense.

I'm confused on what i should and should not do, i feel like the choises i've made recently have been for the worse rather than for the better, but i dont know if i should do things to make myself feel better or things that make it better for me on the long run, even if it kills me now. .....even so when i think things are okay and going smoothly some little thing just tips it all over, or rather some little thing that i can just as well ignore, i dont and push it to tip things over. i dont understand.

I'm hungry yes, i want chikin. i just tried it yesterday and it was good. i want to eat them again, i feel like eating them. and peaches too, i want peaches.

so uh.. i dont know what else to type about..so i'm gonna stop ranting now. at least i feel a little better.