Posted

Jan 6th 2006

Mood

Annoyed

As most are aware that are watching me, that I'm doing a set of images called, 'I am not a Model'. Well some care, some don't and yada yada yada..

Well I was uploading some pics last night to Deviant Art and one of them got fav'ed and I was indeed thrilled that it did. Well I went to see who had faved my pic to find that this person had nothing but nude girls in his faves.

Well my first thought was that if I'm gonna be slumped in with the rest of them then I don't wanna be faved at all, and that I might as well take the set down right now.

Well I acted before thinking and snapped at him about it. Which is not the best thing to do. He's only 18 and I'm sure 'artistic design and imagery' is not on his top 10 list of things to look for. I mean let face it! When I was 18 it sure as hell wasn't mine.

Well anyway I snapped at him, he removed it from his faves and we ended our conversation on a bad note.

After I cooled down again I wanted to ask him exactly WHY he liked my photo, if there was any other reason other then I was in a bra. But the damage was done and I didn't feel like continuing a fight that had no real end.

But it did make me think again about WHY I was doing this set myself. I meant it to be something different and show that you don't have to be skinny, with long hair, and perfect tits, and spread legs to be beautiful.

But if my images don't stand out from the rest of them then what's the point? Couse honestly when I look at his faves and mine was among them it took me a while to find it. To me it just didn't stand out as something different.

then i came to the conclusion today that he's just a boy thinking with the wrong head and he can go blow himself for all i care.