Posted

May 13th 2005

Mood

Blah

Music

Green Day- Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Today I feel exhausted like every other day because all Im doing these days is working on school and at friendships. Some I've held back a lot from these days, others I am putting more energy into. I dislike when you are there for someone and then they aren't there for you in the same way. Im tired of putting in 500% only to get back 50%. It's not fair, and although I go through my mood swings on friendship constantly, Im confident that the changes that are being made are going to become permanent. I'm also looking for better places to put my left over energy into. I was told by my self-defense instructor that taekwondo is for people like me. People who are stressed and just need to release some anger. I've had some good times this past week too. I spent two and half hours o the phone with one of my best friends, and it was one of my coolest experiences with her because of her mentality to learn and try to accept. She understand with out realizing that she does. ALso, today I went to Wonderland, and for a while I was beginning to feel that I was branching away from one of my friends,Emily. Today however, I realized that it doesnt matter how much time we spend apart,when we manage to get together we ca nstill have fun like old times, with a new addition, Keely. BUt yah, I'm really sorry everyone for not returning messages and everything, I still care about everyone on this site, well maybe not everyone, but most, and I'd like to keep in touch and touch base.

LAter! :)