Posted

May 9th 2005

Mood

Blah

Music

bent . matchbox20

I took some kinda cool pictures yesterday and my mom loved her present ... which made up the fact that i got one of my side mirror stolen from my car and that the thingy with J is not working - its hopeless.

i will post the new pics shortly since most of then will be part of casey`s portfolio deal. I also tried some pastel drawing, i hadnt done that in a long time... i might do it more often, since i havent batik in a while. Seans says i have too much free tiem that i should get a guy ..lol hes crazy!

Also i totally caught this guys attention at Kathy`s shower party, it was an ego boost, poor thing followed me around all the time with the video cam, it was starting to be annoying though. Plus iam not that pretty, nor its a merit of mine to be so... i kinda get annoyed when told ur so pretty too much.

I feel burnout, iam tired of everything and getting more restless by the hour... could it be turning into depression? maybe iam just being dramatic, i can be like that sometimes.

wish i could run but i wont be able to hide cuz everything will catch up with me sooner or later ... so that is not an option. I think i might need to take some antidepressants or something ... i swear i dont have any will to make it thru the day...or out of my bed at this point. I feel everything is so stale now.

Sean said something too sweet yesterday "hes an idiot... cuz he doesnt see the magic in you ..."

Today was the b-day of A.