Posted

May 4th 2005

Mood

Playful

Music

mama dolores . el bicho

so J said things are getting better - meaning his life, nice to know that iam part of that better ... which is true to quite some extend in my life too ... iam focusing my attention onto something else thus this patch of blue seems is at ease. Iam grateful for this change, iam smiling again.

i spoke to alfonso today, he said : this is amazing, my bro n then my girl call in one day .. yeah me! I kinda felt like i was asking his permission to go out with J ... i wasnt kinda, i was, still have no idea why i did it but i felt like it. yes iam a freak. Hes on the same situation as me though ... i miss having him around despite that we have been around each other for limited amounts of time. The funny thing is i know we would make a terrible couple, its just a weird way i love him and how loving him has evolved ... quite quite few understand this or me for any matter. He feels the same way too ... n i`ll always be his girl. I adore him literally but not in a romantically way but in the way u love a brother, a best friend and the light of your eyes...