Resurfacing Pain

Resurfacing Pain

I would like to tell myself
that I'm responsible for this hell
but every time I see your picture
the truth comes bursting through.

You forced me into guilty seclusion
fed my hate and my delusion
and yet somehow
you're still walking free.

I never told out of pure fear
that you would return with that leer
and send me crashing
back into my painful dreams.

So here I sit in fake happiness
until my heart remembers this
enormous incident from
so long ago.