Am i still here?

Am i still here?

You thought you could control me,
You thought you could taunt me,
You thought i wasnt worth your time,
You thought i was the one who ruined your life.

I Think your jealous,
Jealous of what i have,
I have what you want,
And what you want is my friends.

You tried to take them away from me.
I denied you any chance of taking them
Yet, its hard to believe that i have them,
They seemed to of left me.
But they were there for me,
When i needed them most.

Nows another time for them to be here,
Yet, i seem to be no where near.
They threw my security back at my face.
I stand, and pace.

So quickly, my life seems to have changed.
So slowly, does it seem to end.
Everybody passes me on the streets,
Turning their backs on me.

Why is everything turning so hard for me?
Why must you taunt me?
Why must i keep on trying?
Why cant i just end it now?