wish i knew

there's days
i would lay down and think
of everything
you put me throu

and there's times
i wish i knew...

"why do you hate me
what did i ever do
to you
why you didn't love me"

how did i
live throu
the abuse you did to me
the times you were close
to completing my death

and so when
you finally left me
i thought of following
cause i had
so many questions
that i wish i knew

like
"who was my father
why did he leave
did he ever loved me"

but then i think
that if i knew
it wouldn't change a thing

because we're still
gonna end up the same

you're in hell
and i might go
to heaven
because i'll never be like you

> misery