Unavoidable End

Unavoidable End

If I knew this before,
I wouldn't have played the game
like this.

I saw him coming,
his knife pointing at
my chest.

I couldn't fight,
all I could do was just to wait
and watch.

I saw him coming,
his knife already was deep inside
my chest.


If only,
I would have
known more.

If only,
I would have
acted before.

If only,
I could change the past, but I
can not.

If only,
I would never have started this, but I
could not.


Now life is slowly slipping away,
while I'm lying on the ground,
waiting for my destiny.

I could blame everyone,
but I will not,
I will never.

I can only blame one,
all I can do is
to blame myself.


Blood is coming from deep inside,
but I am not dead
nor living.

All I can do,
is to live with
the shame.

But live, this live,
does not feel like
live anymore.


I look into the eyes of my killer,
I know it is not
his fault.

He was only holding the knife,
the real killer
was me.

I knew too little,
I know too much
about live.



I lost all my blood,
but still,
I am not dead,
nor alive.