My Poisoning Sins

My Poisoning Sins

My poison is hatred
My thirst is desire
All I could do is wait and see
All I can do is watch them over me
My poison is fear
My pain that comes back and forth
All I can do is scream
All I can do is cry blissfully
My poison is love
My dream is revenge
All I can do is fall apart
All I can do is run away from darkness in my heart
My poison is deception
My road a veiled hallway with no light
All I can do is dream a dream
All I can do is stand and fight
My poison is to hope
All I have left is to wish and grope
My challenge to learn how to cry again
All I can do is feel the rain pour down
Let it fall, it shows what I’m trying to let out
All I can do is envy others for their gift because I have no emotion
The monster of jealously slowly grows a little more
It wants to come out and settle then score
It’s blood full of greed
My poison is being bittersweet
My greatest fear to laugh again
All I can see is watch that spiteful smile repeat and repeat
See others cheat as I fall to my feet
All I can do is live a lie
Make it somewhat worthwhile
As I hear the sour words of truth and go through denial
My deadly weapon is being me, an individual
Me ….alone ….and I
You can call me a mistake that you desire to erase
A wish that I would decease right in front of your face
Do as you may
What will happen?
I’m not sure, find out
Break me down, tell me I’m nothing
But I won’t give up no matter what you call me
It always will be like this
So just be you and I’ll be me
Even if it defies what or who you are really at times
We all are anyhow…one big plague
So does it matter if you play this game of crushing others?
Are we all insane? Or are we just born this way?
No we’re all unique in our very ways
Every good has its hidden evil
We do what we do
Must what we must
And can what we can
I can be everyone and everything but,
I just want to be infected and carry my special venom
And that thing, well it’s being different
No matter what everyone has it
So don’t try looking for a remedy
We’re just one big error that life has permitted to keep
We’re one big song of disaster, creativity and weird things
That’s just how it is
It always will be
That my friend is just humanity