Far Away [For Kristina]

Far Away [For Kristina]

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait

[POV #1]

I’m a fool, really, for everything I’ve done.
Drugs, alcohol, emotional burdens and abuse. I don’t know what I would have done-

-If you weren’t there beside me.

I made mistakes and broke so many rules just to be cool, popular, loved? Now I can’t really tell, it’s all just a blur of the past, threatening to tear me down, rip me to pieces, drown me in my memories. Of all the broken promises-

-I regret yours the most.

No matter what you would have done back then I’m not sure I could have been happy with my mind so altered, I could never tell my reality from my fantasy and so I could never see the you I love.

I’m sorry.

Truly.

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
You know, you know

[POV #2]

I’ve always been there for you, helping you, even in the worst ways, because you’re my friend. I have nothing to regret but that I let you go through with what you did. Of all the things I’ve see-

-I’ve hated seeing you depressed the most.

There are some things I regret in my life, some things I would rather not mention, but if I could have changed a part of the past, I would change that. Having to see you go through with what you did the pain and anger and depression it put you in, it kills me to even think about it. I can hardly imagine what it put you through.

I’m sorry.

Truly.

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
And you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand

[POV #1]

Thinking back I’ve realized a lot of my mistakes. Placing such a burden upon your shoulders and then blaming you for everything-

-Forgive me.

It wasn’t right, and I realized that now. You never did anything to give me away, and I know that now. I have for a while.

Love is a strong word, and maybe I’m not ready to say it yet, but I do.

Really.

Truly.

Deep down I’m sure of it.

I promise.

I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
You know, you know, you know

[POV #2]

I’m proud of you, for pulling through so greatly. Nothing could make me happier than to know you are safe and alright, to know that you are thinking strait, to know how you feel-

-About me.

And I about you. I know that this incident has made us stronger, and I am happy for that, but I only wish we could have grown without such pain and sadness. I’m glad to know you like me, and I’m glad to know I like you as well, and I’m glad for us to still be in contact. Life is harder without you by my side, so I will wait for you.

Really.

Truly.

Deep down, I’m sure of it.

I promise.

So far away
Been so far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

[END]