Everything

Everything

Everything I've ever wanted
sits before me,
just out of reach.

Everything I've ever needed
is now farther away
than ever before.

He says no, but is
that really so?
Is it really true?

Is there any love there
for me anymore?
How do you just stop?

Did he ever, really, in
the first place?
How'm I to know?

So many things I want to say.
So many things
I need to know.

How do you ask what your
heart and mind
need to hear?

When you're afraid of the
answers you'll
get for them?

After things that have happened,
how do you know
you can believe?

I want him so bad, I need him
but does he even
want me anymore?

Did he ever really want me
to start with, or
was it just convenient?